I hear
My stomach rumbling now
My body is a temple
Came crumbling down
Through the ruins
I search for mistakes
I remember my fault
I remember the breaks
My body once precious
Is now gaunt of its parts
I must remember
Go back to the start
When I was full
My body still ticked
I was a human
Before I was tricked
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I drifted through the cosmos
Because you were lost
I didn’t know what it would take
Didn’t know what it would cost
I wouldn’t have cared
But I definitely should
I ignored the bad
I searched for the good
You screamed in a vacuum
And my fullness listened close
I yearned to see you
To save us both
You were alone in the stars
And you weren’t the first
But I have enough air
And I’ve been through worse
As I search behind planets
I’m remembering more
I’ve searched this path
I’ve been here before
There’s something inside me
That urges going back
But you yell to me in pain
And my worries just stack
Though I remember this journey
I shove it all down
I can’t centre myself
When you have no ground
Beyond better reason I keep going
To look
I search every corner
Every cranny
Every nook
But something feels wrong
And then nothing at all
I feel my body pull
And I know it’s your call
My intuition is helpless
To your magnetic strength
I blow out my senses
And follow the scent
There it is before me
What has taken you here
A black hole eating space
It’s intentions are clear
You’re inside somehow
Somehow, still alive
You must be breathing darkness
With the nothing by your side
I push down my fear
And push in my brave
To dive right in
You need to be saved
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The nothing is cold
Colder than ice
I feel like I’m dying
I’m paying a price
There are no thoughts anymore
I’m shaking afraid
If I’m paying a price
I hope it gets paid
I forget again
Why I jumped in
Where I was
And where that I went
I know I am scared
I know I am cold
To have jumped in here
I must’ve been bold
But my senses fill up
With a monstrous scream
Skating my systems
Cooling my steam
The scream is inside me
Yet somehow all around
I feel that it’s ripping
I’m moving with the sound
I know where I am now
I know that’s your yell
I don’t need answers
I know how to tell
Your desperation is taunting
And I’ve heard it before
You want me to scream too
You want me to give more
There were creatures before you
Who attempted this trap
And I am the idiot
Who was lost with a map
I know what comes next
But I’m not prepared
But I know that you like that
You want me to be scared
Through all your pain
You want me to suffer too
If you can drag me apart
You can follow me through
So your darkness rips me
Dislocated my joints
Feasting on my weakness
Making that a point
You tear me to my centre
Beat me to my core
In a minute i am nothing
But you have more in store
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Suddenly im in nature
Where we used to walk
But you are no where around
So I take my stock
Two arms, two legs
One body one head
I’ve survived the black hole
Only to pick at threads
So I decide to stop searching
For the scar of my past
But I’m suddenly in pain
And it leaves me aghast
There is something on my back
Something sucking through my skin
Something that followed me here
And wants to eat my sin
I feel for its body
It’s like a tick or a leech
You found your way back
When I followed your screech
I know you are the creature
Sucking my life
I remember the pain now
I remember your strife
I stumble through the forest
While you drain me dry
I wish I remembered earlier
I wish I remembered why
Why you taunted me into the space
Beyond space, into naught
You ripped me from my confidence
You marked me in the spot
I’ve traveled through this forest
With you, and other times
But remembering only hurts
It’s a punishment for my crime
I make it to a clearing
With what little I have left
You feed on my hollowness
My no self respect
I see the tower
From where I began
I know it has crumbled
I know what I am
So I use all my. Strength
And pull you off
To lie with the stones
To let my body rot
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You won’t feed on me
I decide my fate
So I’d rather die here
Than live fading away